I feel so extremely motivated and rejuvenated to start the year off fresh. My mind is cluttered with a million resolutions and hopes for myself, some extremely life changing and some so miniscule they will never be verbalized, but these have been pushed to the back of my mind because I am constantly thinking about my sweet Lexi girl. Going in to 2012, I am so worried and devastated about her health. She has a second cancerous tumor growing rapidly on her belly. I just can't imagine a year without her bushy tail wagging and her broken ear hanging so sweetly.
Before I start thinking about the year to come, tonight is all about reflecting. I love thinking about the year that has passed. Have I changed or grown? Was I a better person in some way? I love thinking about the accomplishments, milestones, and traditions of my family. I am not sure if I have changed, but I know I am learning as I go. Everyday I strive to be a better mom, wife, and teacher. I am learning (as hard as it is) to be okay with not being perfect and just doing the best I can. I think that makes me a better person.
This year left me with so many smiles especially celebrating a first birthday and watching a little girl start walking. It was a year of firsts for Kailyn and a year of watching a baby grow into a toddler. It was amazing as I piloted my way through motherhood, and I loved every second of it.
Christmas has passed, and we celebrated in style. I considered Christmas a huge success since we only had one ornament casualty from some dangerous little hands. Too bad, I can't say the say for Mom Mom's tree on Christmas Eve.
Christmas morning was a lot of fun. Kay got in and out of her little wagon holding her stuffed animal that looks just like Lexi for most of the morning.
and worrying about her ...
Happy New Year to all! This is going to be the best year yet!
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