Sunday, February 3, 2013

Back to the Grind

My maternity leave is officially over. That means, I am going to hit publish on this here little post, and I will be logging in to look at lesson plans and emails. It is back to the grind I go. I will miss these little girls with all heart.

I am so lucky because my very supportive momma is coming to stay at my house for a few days to watch the kids and make life easier for us while we get into our new routine. It will be so much easier not having to take the kids out of the house this week while I am trying to figure out how I am going to get myself ready, feed my sweet baby Keira, and pump in the morning. Mornings are NOT my strong suit and that is putting it lightly.

As I enjoy my last few hours of maternity leave, I am reflecting on my time spent at home...making the Big Sis feel special and needed, adjusting to (and LOVING) this new world of breastfeeding, caring for these two girls, and caring for myself. With all of the memories we shared over the past four and a half months, I still question myself. Did I do enough? Did I make the most out of every second? Time has run out, and I worry that I left pages of our book unturned.

Then, I look at this face and the face of her sweet sister and I know deep down in my heart, I have given all of the love and nurturing I have to give. It doesn't matter if our days were not blog worthy, it doesn't matter if we stayed in our pajamas all day, but what matters is the amount of pure love that was passed between us each and every day.

I am going to miss everything about this experience. I am going to miss those special, lazy mornings waking up next to a sweet smelling newborn and seeing her smile. I am going to miss sitting on the floor with Kay while we played with Gaga and watched our main squeeze Michael Strahan. I am going to miss pretending to eat five million bowls of peas that Kay offered me all morning long. I am going to miss watching Gaga get stronger and stronger during her tummy time (I hope I don't miss her first roll because I worked so hard with her).

All smiles when she sees her mommy even during tummy time!
I am going to miss turning the corner to the quiet playroom and finding Kay engaged and happy playing with her toys.

I am going to miss our nursing sessions during the day. I am going to miss the feeling of the world stopping when Keira and I would sit together and snuggle while Kailyn napped. I am going to miss feeding my girls for every meal. I am going to miss being home with my girls. But, I am so blessed and thankful to have had this time at home.

I am ready to face this new world as a mom to two young children. I am eager and excited to continue my journey to bettering myself in a career that I find rewarding and challenging. Look out world, Here I come!

1 comment:

  1. I feel your pain! Going back to teaching after maternity leave was sooo hard ... But at least we can look forward to summer?!! New follower!!!